Pain

I had a dream one day,and in my dream I saw my "Dream Boy". He was standing just few feets away from me and smiling. I felt the smile was as pure as a little Baby's smile. His eyes were full of truth. He was looking a grateful gentleman.I wanted to go near to him, to touch him, so that I could make sure that it was not a 'Dream', though it was.He was calm and I was just looking at him stunned in an amusement that how adorable he was.He blinked his eyes and I felt that my heart started beating fast.
I was thinking that "Oh God give me the power so that I can go to him and say that I waited all my life for you".I was longing to get the power to tell him that I want to be a part of your life............ and guess what.. He started walking towards me , he was coming close and close.............more close. He stopped just one step away from me and opened his mouth and said " I Love You ". His eyes were bright and full of truth. I just could not believe that. I was almost getting mad in happiness.
We both were standing in front of each other. He was waiting for my response. And then I took out my heart out of my body and handed over to him. He smiled again and took it in his hands with full care and love.He stepped backward and in a while he was a little away from me.He was stll smiling.I was quite happy.But right then a little pain came from somewhere. He was playing with my heart with his both hands. The pain was more and more but he was still smiling........... And finally he threw my heart in air to that much height from where it fell and broke in thousands of pieces...............
Now I was there only with my broken heart pieces. He went away with the smile.Only the pain was left and I was standing over there and thinking that to which piece of my heart I should go first.

why do we want something ?

This " Want " is very dangerous. why the hell we ever want anything in life and why this want never satisfies you even if you get what you want............. Because there is something hidden behind this "want" which never gives you peace of mind.
when I want people in my life should be loving and caring then why dont I have the power to believe that the love and care which they show is true? Is everything decieves in life or we decieve ourself believing that everything is true. what is the funda to trust anything in life? how do we trust people in life and how do we trust our own soul because the meaning of trust, meaning of truth, meaning of love, meaning of happyness, meaning of self evrything changes from time to time.But I dont want to change, but I am scared that I am changing the way life wants and we call it Adaptibity . Rubbish.......... what kind of Adaptibilty is this where you kill your own self just beacuse the circumstances say that and it's the easy way out.