What If...............

Life is going on fast and I want to slow it down but knowing the fact that it's not possible I am trying to run fast. But how fast I can run? Now that is what depends on my efforts as per all great people. But, what if I dont want to run though I am not able to stand at the place I am standing at. What if I dont want to sleep though I am not able to stay awake. What if dont want to say anything though I have lots of things to talk about. What if I dont want to sing though a sweet song is going on in my mind. What if I dont want to cry though I have pain in my heart.What if I am not happy though there is no reason to be said.What if I dont want to live though I know I can not die.