My Battle

Yes It is my Battle and I have to fight it alone, And I realized it loooong ago but it still hurts when someone whom you expect just to listen to you, says it to you. Everybody's life is different and No one can really solve your problems but There are some people whom you look up to just to share your problems without any expectation of resolution........ I did a mistake after a very long time to look up to someone..... It's not that I am not strong. I am not a kid who expects others to solve my problems. But sometimes you start idealizing someone and you are mistaken when you expect them to understand everything, which is obviously a wrong expectation......... But years after I felt that there are genuine people who are of golden heart and deserve respect and regard. And that's the only reason I approached you without realizing that I should not assume you to listen to me.
I have never confessed in my life, but today I confess that I miss a father in my life at times, Though rarely but I do.

I know this post seems very personnel stuff, but I could not stop myself of writing it.....
But after all I am not sad because I know I am strong enough to tackle life today...... So here I come to you life with a smile.

I am feeling like I am stuck

I am feeling like I am hanging between earth and sky at a height where the Gravitational force is not able to reach and the sky has no intention of calling me towards it. What do I do ?? I am feeling like telling someone that I also want to feel normal and want to live a life where no boundaries , no fear, no superficial formalities, no hypocrisy, no force and no preset rules exist...... But wait.. this will not be normal life then.... Because if you expect a life like this then they call it NOT normal or Abnormal....... In a normal life you should behave and follow exactly the same path which others are going on...... How can you go in any other direction ??...... How can you be so insensitive that you only listen to your heart and not to the social preset rules echoing everywhere around you. If you do that then they make you feel miserable telling you every single moment that you are on a wrong path and you will fall down soon....... But I don't care. If I fall down I will be happy at least I tried to listen to my heart. Yes I am scared, Yes it is painful from time to time. Yes it is difficult but I will go on...........