If Only

If Only I would have got a chance to talk to you one last time,

If Only I would have not showed you so much of anger,

If only you would have turned back once and called me again,

If only I would have forgotten bitter things in that moment,

If Only I would have cherished the happy moments at that point,

If only you would have not taken those steps ahead,

If only I would have stopped you and pulled you back,

If only I could have said what was inside me,

If Only I would have understood what you were going through,

If Only the sky would have roared to tell me what is ahead,

If Only I would have got that one more chance……….

Now,

What if we meet in next life again?

Will you recognize me?

If Only I could have said that please do recognize me in our next life.

If Only I would have got a chance to bid you a final goodbye………….. If Only

I don't care what they think. It's my heart

I don't want to live in past so I don't turn my head to any direction which reminds me of you. You are not forgotten but you don't deserve to be remembered. Many times I used to look back to your last few lines which you wrote to me.... I read between the lines but found nothing to hold on ..... For you I was just an experience , For me you were everything which made my life and destroyed together..... You would call me emotional fool may be, but I don't care. I don't care what you think, what others think, Because my feelings and emotions are only mine and no one can truly understand someone else's feelings. Everybody has a different heart and a different inner. People may go through the same experience in life but I believe that everyone has a different core which feels and no one can understand that.

Dairy

Shamina was writing something in her dairy " I Just realised that it's being years that we haven't spoken to each other but still it feels that it was just now that we were having that chat, that we were sitting together, that we were talking for hours, that we were not thinking about this world, that I was crazy for you and perhaps you were or may be not. I don' t know but at least I believed that you felt the same. Perhaps I was wrong and that's why you kept moving and I got lost in those moments to an extent that I am searching myself even today".....

 Some one called her from the other room and she immediately closed her dairy so that no one sees it.

So whatever she was writing was left in between just like her life was left in between. It happens to her many times but she still dare to write and still dares to live and love life.