What If...............

Life is going on fast and I want to slow it down but knowing the fact that it's not possible I am trying to run fast. But how fast I can run? Now that is what depends on my efforts as per all great people. But, what if I dont want to run though I am not able to stand at the place I am standing at. What if I dont want to sleep though I am not able to stay awake. What if dont want to say anything though I have lots of things to talk about. What if I dont want to sing though a sweet song is going on in my mind. What if I dont want to cry though I have pain in my heart.What if I am not happy though there is no reason to be said.What if I dont want to live though I know I can not die.

I dont know

I dont know how to write about feelings but I always believe that one day I will learn it. I am writing this blog because I dont know what else to do when you know everything but you still want to believe that you konw nothing.My mind is in a state where you stand and look back but not able to find anything, then you loook forward and do not see anything there also. but as always that's life.



It's you always that I thought of
It's you always that I care for,
It's you always that I write for
It's you always that I sing for,
It's you always that I smile for
It's you always that I live for,
It's you always for whome I can die for..............

You all are cordially invited for "Agnisuta Draupadi Ki Katha." ballet, at SRC

Dear Friends,

On behalf of Sanskriti Dance Institute and Green Protection Force,
I am inviting you on our new invention Agnisuta " Draupadi Ki Katha. "

Directed by Rajeev Sonu Gupta and I will be palying the role of Draupadi

You all are cordially invited with your family, friends and all.
Thank you....

TITLE : Agnisuta Draupadi Ki Katha.

DIRECTOR : Rajeev Sonu Gupta

DATE : Friday, 14th August 2009

TIME : 8.00 p.m.

VENUE : Shri Ram Temple Premises, Ashok Vihar Phase-I, Delhi

CONTACT : 9899268866


For VIP passes please contact on 9811675050


Regards,

Manju Hooda
9899268866

POINT OF VIEW

All the differences which exist amongst us is because ofdifferent "point of view" which everybody has. we as a human being have got the power to think. An ability which is responsible for amazing ideas for the good of this world and an abilty responsible for drastic and horrible creations in the world. Point of view is an outcome of this good and bad ability " To Think "................. My point of view might be totaly different from any of my known person and both of us might be right or wrong but who will decied that who is right and who is wrong . We can appoint a third person for that but the condition is that the third person should not have the abilty to have a point of view and still be able to decide that what's wrong and what's right. Not having a point of view means the third person should not be able to think.buuuuutttttttt if the person will not be able to think then how would he make a decision..........
hmmmmmm....... this is quite difficult. Many times I give it a thoght that how can we define " Right" and "Wrong".

REALITY SUCKS....................

People who seem to be generous,kind and innocent are the most dangerous people in your life.It is very difficult to recognize a person and for that matter a person who seems to be so easy to be understood.

who says that life is beautiful?
where the trust has got lost?
where does the truth stay?
why everything is so blurred?
why people are not transparent?
why do people lie?

The more you try to understand life,it becomes more complicated.

Here I am sitting and thinking all these things, but who the hell cares what I think or what the realty is. Everybody is busy in a damn competetion of "Survival". And most of them want to live with happyness but I doubt that they are happy. because how can you be happy in this world which is full of cheaters and liers. Now it would be wrong to call everybody a cheater or a lier but the Ratio of good peaple is very low and I doubt that there is any good person left on this earth.......... I know there are many............... but the problem is they are not able to save thier own qualities of bieng good........ In fact the defenition of bieng Good has become so diffficult to understand in this Era. I dont know but sometimes you get to know certain things in life that you start to hate evrything and when that stage comes in life you talk and think like this...............................like this................Hey but why I am thinking like this........ let them be whatever they are.I wont let myself feel down because of those rubbish people.

" इश्क "

ये इश्क क्या है,
एक काँटों भरी हवा है,
एक मीठा ज़हर है,
एक प्यारा कहर है,
एक खामोश सैलाब है,
एक ज़हरीली शराब है,
एक ख्वाबों का आशियाना है,
एक खाली सा पैमाना है,
एक अजीब सी चुभन है,
एक मीठी सी जलन है,
एक अजब सा एहसास है,
कोई दूर है पर पास है,
एक महकती सी सुबह है,
एक ढलती सी श्याम है,
एक सजती सी महफ़िल है,
एक उदासी का जाम है,
एक खिलती सी सुबह है,
एक ढलती सी श्याम है,
एक दुःख भरी मुस्कान है,
एक अलग सी पहचान है,
एक अजीब सा जादू है,
एक अजीब सी खुशबू है,
एक ऐसी पहेली जो कभी ना सुलझे,
जितना सुलझाओ उतनी और उलझे,
एक ऐसा समंदर जिसका कोई किनारा नही,
एक ऐसा आसमान , जिसमे कोई सितारा नहीं,
एक ऐसा विश्वास जो टूट कर भी ना टूटे,
एक ऐसा साथ जो छूट कर भी ना छूटे...........

"Will it make a difference"

" We live in a society where we are becoming more and more modern and educated but this has very less to do with love and equality. Even today when you ask any Hindu father that what would he do if his daughter gets married with a Muslim Guy, 90% will not accept that.They want thier child to become doctor,engineer,professor but not to get married with intercast person."

We all say that there is no difference between a girl and Boy but why in an Indian family there has to be atleast one boy in the family? And because of this we can
not Imagine that how any women go for abortion everyday till the time they dont
give birth to a Boy baby.

Why in evrey 80 Seconds a Woman gets Raped in our country? Are all of those Rapist uneducated or from backward areas? No then what is the difference between an Educated and Uneducated person? or I would rather say What is the difference between a Human Bieng and Animal? A lot depends on Moral Values and Love amongst Human biengs.It's very difficult to bring a change suddenly but the young generation has to take the responsiblity to break the Insensitive Customes and rules of our socity.

Today I felt happy when I got to know that One friend of mine who is a Muslim guy going to marry a Hindu girl. As usual they are getting married without telling it to thier families because the families are against this marriage.But the quistion is how will the families accept this marriage in near future when they will get to know about it. The bride and groom can not have the pleasure of getting married with the blessing and love od thier Relatives and friends just because we are still not in a position where a Muslim guy can marry a Hindu girl without any hassle.............

Then Where is the change in society ? Will this one marriage make a difference ?

When you called me " sweetheart "

When you called me sweetheart,
Did you really mean that?
If yes then why did you go away,
If No then why did you say that..............


When you came in my life,
Did you really exist?
If yes then why did you go away,
If No then why did you come in my life.......

When you came in my dream,
Did you really come?
If yes then why did I get awake,
If No then why did I ever sleep..............

When you held me in your arms,
Were you really holding me?
If yes then why did you let me fall,
If No then why did you even touch me.........

When you spoke to me for hours,
Were you really speaking to me?
If yes then why are you so quite now,
If No then why did you ever speak............

When I smiled because of you,
Did you really feel happy?
If yes then why did you make me cry,
If No then why did you make me smile.........


When you called me sweetheart,
Did you really mean that?
If yes then why did you go away,
If No then why did you say that..............

Was it an end or begining

Two years back We All met one day under one roof when we dint even know each other. so many questions were there in each head. then we spend two years together and now when we are parting it was a terrible moment. today we had our last show and after the play nobody from us wanted to step out of that place where we met two years back.But as we know every one and everything has to move out of your life one day................. Today we laughed a lot, we sang a lot and we cried also because we were like a big family in these two years. we loved each other, we faught with each other on silly reasons,we understood each other, we helped each other.and on this last day it was really difficult for us to say bye to each other.In these two years We have learnt a lot about life, people,society and many more than that.I consider myself very lucky that I got this opportunity of being a part of SRC.

Our third and last production in SRC

SRC 2nd Yr Acting students presents

William Shakespear's

"A MIDSUMMER NIGHT'S DREAM "


6.30 pm on 2nd, 3rd, 4th & 5th Apr 2009 at shri Ram Centre (Main Auditorium)
4, safdar Hashmi Marg, Mandi House ,New Delhi -01 : Enquiry : 23714307

Jaate hua Lamhe

Kaash hum in jaate hua lamho ko rok paate,
toh phir hume shikaayat koi na hoti..........
ya phir mausam ki tarah ye lamhe bhi lot aate,
toh phir hume shikaayat koi na hoti............

Koi jaa ke kahe de is guzarate samaa se,
ki humko iski ek aadat si ho gayi hai,
ye aadat padne se pehle ye lamhe laut jaate,
toh phir hume shikaayat koi naa hoti........
Kaash hum in jaate hua lamho ko rok paate,
toh phir hume shikaayat koi na hoti..........

kaise kahe ki kaun saa jaado basa hai inme,
kaise kahe ki kaun saa raaz chupa hai inme,
is jaado ke nashe or is raaz ki gahrai tak agar hum pahuch jaate
toh phir hume shikayat koi naa hoti.........
Kaash hum in jaate hua lamho ko rok paate,
toh phir hume shikaayat koi na hoti..........

humaare or in lamho ke beech badh rahi hai doori,
par hume in lamho se kehna hai kuch bahut zaroori,
zindagi me gar ye naa aate toh zindagi rah jaati adhoori,
zindagi ke is adhoorepan ko hum poora kar paate,
toh phir hume shikaayat koi naa hoti........
Kaash hum in jaate hua lamho ko rok paate,
toh phir hume shikaayat koi na hoti..........

Pain

I had a dream one day,and in my dream I saw my "Dream Boy". He was standing just few feets away from me and smiling. I felt the smile was as pure as a little Baby's smile. His eyes were full of truth. He was looking a grateful gentleman.I wanted to go near to him, to touch him, so that I could make sure that it was not a 'Dream', though it was.He was calm and I was just looking at him stunned in an amusement that how adorable he was.He blinked his eyes and I felt that my heart started beating fast.
I was thinking that "Oh God give me the power so that I can go to him and say that I waited all my life for you".I was longing to get the power to tell him that I want to be a part of your life............ and guess what.. He started walking towards me , he was coming close and close.............more close. He stopped just one step away from me and opened his mouth and said " I Love You ". His eyes were bright and full of truth. I just could not believe that. I was almost getting mad in happiness.
We both were standing in front of each other. He was waiting for my response. And then I took out my heart out of my body and handed over to him. He smiled again and took it in his hands with full care and love.He stepped backward and in a while he was a little away from me.He was stll smiling.I was quite happy.But right then a little pain came from somewhere. He was playing with my heart with his both hands. The pain was more and more but he was still smiling........... And finally he threw my heart in air to that much height from where it fell and broke in thousands of pieces...............
Now I was there only with my broken heart pieces. He went away with the smile.Only the pain was left and I was standing over there and thinking that to which piece of my heart I should go first.

why do we want something ?

This " Want " is very dangerous. why the hell we ever want anything in life and why this want never satisfies you even if you get what you want............. Because there is something hidden behind this "want" which never gives you peace of mind.
when I want people in my life should be loving and caring then why dont I have the power to believe that the love and care which they show is true? Is everything decieves in life or we decieve ourself believing that everything is true. what is the funda to trust anything in life? how do we trust people in life and how do we trust our own soul because the meaning of trust, meaning of truth, meaning of love, meaning of happyness, meaning of self evrything changes from time to time.But I dont want to change, but I am scared that I am changing the way life wants and we call it Adaptibity . Rubbish.......... what kind of Adaptibilty is this where you kill your own self just beacuse the circumstances say that and it's the easy way out.

It was really good

chalte chalte hum itne door aa gaye ,
ki wapas mud ke dekha to sab kuch peeche choot gaya,
humne toh na chaha tha kisi ka dil todna,
na jaane kab kyon aur kaise aaj har koi humse rooth gaya,
Par hum kya kare ki hamari shaksiyat hi kuch aise hai,
aur phir sirf hum hi kyon ye duniya bhi toh kuch aise hai,
is safar me na jaane aur kitne maud ayenge,
toh kya hua agar is pichali rah me kuch choot gaya..............

I tried to be poetic here............. ooooh ,I am trying to compete with indian writers.....oh just kidding. India writers have got an incompetent,imaginative and a creative mind.
Anyways in last 10 days----- 24 play. good figure haan...... yes I saw 24 plays in the NSD 11th international festival(2009). It was a great experience and yesterday's presentation made it more exciting and wonderfull. I want to write a lot today but Kya karoon. office jaana hai and have to sleep now. next time I will take out more time to write....................... but now I have to stop here.